Comments on: ‘K.O.D.’ – Fans Reflect With Stories Of Struggle And Inspiration

By: eliv ohcysp

eliv ohcysp — Sat, 27 Oct 2012 04:55:00 +0000

Wow I thought I was the only person who felt K.O.D had a surreal meaning in their life……This album dropped at a time in my life when I’d just lost my wife because of unfaithfullness my daughter because her mom took italher too(still have’nt seen her)and both parents fighting cancer…..I attempted suicide one night(fail) good friend KnewI but whilein the hospital a really good friend knew I was a true Technician and bought it for me the first time I heard Low I almost cried because no song had ever had such significant meaning in my life…….Now I have K.O.D tatted said fuck being married and started my,never ending quest to find my daughter THANK YOU TECH!!!

By: Priest

Priest — Thu, 25 Oct 2012 22:28:00 +0000

Actually, the past 3 years had been such a blur that the year after my dad left, I had a thoracic aneurysm in the Azygos vein. It was a pretty rare case. It ended up collapsing my lungs and putting me in the hospital for 2 weeks. If I hadn’t gone to the hospital that night, I’d of died in my sleep. They originally thought I had Hodgekins Lymphoma because of an unidentified chest mass. They ended up going in for a biopsy and were about 60 seconds from jabbing it with a needle before they figured out that it was an Aneurysm and that would have caused me to bleed to death. I ended up getting lucky and after 3 months of sleeping 20 hours a day and spending my life in a Vicoden haze, they ended up doing a catherization surgery that ended up with the Aneurysm being cut off via small nickel-titanium alloy clips. The Aneurysm ended up solidifying and damaging the nerve clusters all throughout my back. To this day they still don’t know why the pain is still there. Ever sicne I woke up from surgery feeling like I’d been shot the pain hasn’t stopped. It’s been 3 years now. I ended up buying KOD a few months after I returned to school about half a year later. It helped me cope with the traumatization and the things that went along with it. In recent years I’ve developed PTSD from the bullying and abuse and living with the pain, it’s contributed to my depression and the suicidal tendencies that go along with it. The Lost Scripts of K.O.D. housed the one track that to this day, is probably one of my most played songs. Painkiller.

“You can’t give me medical attention to ease my pain, sometimes I need something to relieve my brain. You may love your M.D., but he has none in store for me. So when the raining bores on me, my dream for Fillers. Painkiller.”

I owe that song my life. All of K.O.D. has helped me survive these ordeals. But that song in particular was my last resort when things hit rock bottom.

I wrote the first submission on a night when my depression was really eating at me and submitting my story really helped me deal with these things. Now I’m adding on to it.

I really mean it, thank you so much for the feature. It’s the least I can do to give back to you guys for making this album for us.

-Seth

Technician for Life

By: Priest

Priest — Thu, 25 Oct 2012 01:48:00 +0000

Thanks so much for the feature. It’s relieving to have your story told.

-Seth

By: QueenOfDarkness2190

QueenOfDarkness2190 — Fri, 19 Oct 2012 22:17:00 +0000

Thank you so so so so much for featuring me on you’re blog! It means the world to me! I am so grateful and its because of your love for you’re fans why you are my favorite artist!

Technician for life!

Facebook.com/katgasseling

By: Jalen Benjamin

Jalen Benjamin — Fri, 19 Oct 2012 21:46:00 +0000

I, too, read all of these stories, and I couldn’t help wanting to share my experience as well. I’m 18 years of age and didn’t start listening to Tech N9ne until this past January. Before that, I had listened to a couple of his songs like “Dysfunctional,” “Demons,” and “I am Everything” (which is the first song I ever listened to by Tech N9ne) back in 10th grade, but I didn’t like rap until this year. After listening to “Demons” for about the 15th time since I first heard of him, I decided to take a chance and listen to his other songs but only after I bought the album first. I would have been taking a leap of faith otherwise, but I listened to “All 6′s and 7′s” just before I got “K.O.D.,” and I told myself, “I have to get the album where he’s talking about being an angel/demon. I want to know more of what he means by that.” I didn’t think it was going to be as dark an album as I now know because “All 6′s and 7′s” was moderately light in comparison.
I was captivated from the very first song, “Show Me a God,” (I had a baby sister that died before she turned three weeks old, so I identify with the skepticism and anger in this song for good reason) and by “The Warning,” I realized that T9X was no ordinary rapper. To this day, I get chills from listening to “The Warning” followed by the intro of “Demons.” The atmosphere is so intense, but so honest. I thought I’d never hear something like that from rap or hip-hop music, and I started to love the art of the underground and the independent rap movements. I do like some mainstream rap now, but only if it’s by proven legends like Nas, Jay-Z, Eminem, etc, and I’ve even started to explore more of the old school other than just the Beastie Boys, Run-DMC, etc. Other artists talk about the most overused and superficial subjects, which I don’t think I have to really name because of how popular it all has become. I’m not saying any musician shouldn’t be able to talk about women or being the best in the game, but it gets so tiring to hear it for half of the album. A “Fuck Em’ Girl,” a “Freaky,” or a “Bite Me” is how such a song should be done, and it doesn’t even have to be as dark as the last two songs. Not to mention, most of these artists don’t have flow to their lyrics like Tecca N9na does.
I could keep talking about Tech N9ne, but I’ll get into how he and “K.O.D.” relate to my struggles:
I’ve suffered from social anxiety and low self-esteem since I was 12. I’ve been mostly down over the years and in my darkness, I’d turn to alternative, heavy, and death metal. While I respect this music and say proudly that I am a metalhead, even in death metal I haven’t heard something that was not only so dark but meaningful. Tech N9ne’s “K.O.D.” wasn’t ridiculous or used to make outlandish comedy. He meant it when he said he had a lot of darkness in him, and it took a lot for him to just make the album because he knew he would receive as a devil worshiper the Anti-Christ, or any other nonsense that could be further from the truth. It just shows that those people can’t appreciate what his music and who he is as a person.
Very recently, my self-esteem and my sudden invisibility to my friends from my high school who are at the same college as me have caused me to start creative writing once more. I did a little in middle school, but not as much as I’ve done in the past few days. The main difference is not that I just stuck with it and kept writing poetry and songs, but I also was able to confront my own demons in the process. I know what T9X means by “E.B.A.H.” I have the best intentions – I’ll hold doors for a dozen people at a time, I say “Yes, ma’am,” and “No, sir,” I respect and pay attention to others when they are talking, and I’ll do favors for friends and even strangers without asking anything in return. However, it’s all been boiling over – Yes, I’m referencing “Boiling Point” – in my mind that people, particularly my friends, not only don’t care, but they ignore me. I am an introverted person, but I was taking the steps in college to make a change, to become a more well-rounded person, whether that was meeting new people or rekindling relationships with old ones. I’ve noticed since I’ve fallen down again that these people haven’t even tried to do the same. I have no enemies in any connotation of the word, so I’ve actually felt bad and thought that maybe they weren’t my friends at all.
The good in this is that I’ve confronted my demons and have officially accepted them as a part of me, even on issues like like my own romantic and sexual desires. I never thought I was perfect, and that was most certainly because of my self-esteem, but even the lightest (nicest, most respectable) people have their shadows, their darkness. I wouldn’t have been able to realize that, confront it, or get better with Tech N9ne’s music and the “K.O.D.” series specifically. I have “K.O.D.” as well as “The Lost Scripts of K.O.D.” and “Seepage,” (which was really good), and I’ve pre-ordered my copy of “Boiling Point” with Tech N9ne’s signature, a first for me. Here’s to hoping this EP is as great as or even better than “Seepage.” I’ve been on this monologue for far too long, but I need to make sure to say my thanks to Tech N9ne and everyone at Strange Music – artists, staff, *and* employees, no matter the position within the company’s hierarchy. I love all of you guys for being able to make a difference in this one person’s, my, life. All of you are important to me.

By: Victor Sandoval

Victor Sandoval — Thu, 18 Oct 2012 06:30:00 +0000

Thanks for sharing man, I’m glad you found something that helped.

By: Dillan Champion

Dillan Champion — Thu, 18 Oct 2012 02:00:00 +0000

All these stories are very emotional n im glad that some them got over there dark hole n im hopin for those that are still battlin with the hole. Be strong. If Tech can do it, then u can do it. Shit, yall stories got me beat. I started listen to Tech from a friend that posted a song on Facebook from Absolute Power called Constantly Dirty, n i’ve been listen ever since. When K.O.D came out i could relate to some of his darkness and helped with my pain. Now its probably gonna sound wack compared to the other ones but i started listen to K.O.D a lot more when my parents got divorced and they decided to go on n off wit there relationship cuz my mom wanted a dad figure or present at tha home. So they would be good, then shit would it tha fan n my dad would cheat n shit. Then mostly all my cousins were n still are addicted to herion. Some are battlin that demon and hopefully will recover but my other cuzins dont seem to get it. N with all that goin on plus some shit at school, K.O.D helped me alot. It made me want to do music, whether it be rappin or makin beats, either way i wanted to do sumthin that involved music. Tech im waitin for that Boilin Point EP to come out n cant wait. Your doin a great job and hope that everyone else will reconize ur talent n ability to chopp muthafukas up on tha stage n on tha mic. Keep doin u.